In All Honesty

I haven't been posting lately, because I feel like if I do it's going to be negative sounding and/or depressing. I'm not in the highest spirits these days, but it's manageable. And finally, I have some positive things to mention.

The midterm point in the semester has come and gone, hallelujah. I still have one more paper to turn in, a week late, but it's not my fault. Half of my paper is to involve work with a client, but my internship has not been the most productive and it is affecting me in every way. Hopefully things will change soon, or I may lose my mind. It's such an integral part of the Social Work program at NYU, and I am not getting what I need from it AT ALL. Again, here's hoping that changes real soon, as in this week. Blah.

BUT! On a positive note, I have received two midterm grades thus far: "A" and "A-". Why give the minus, really? I've never understood the plus and minus mentality. Either it's an "A" paper or it's not. I guess I should be grateful for the existence of the plus/minus grading system, because I may have slipped down to a "B" if it didn't exist. So yeah, I should be happy about those grades, and I am. I just sometimes feel like I'm fooling the teacher. I don't quite have the confidence in myself that I should. My roommate called me on that this weekend and told me I'm too hard on myself. That may be true, but I am the only one who knows what goes on behind the scenes of my school life, and honestly, it's not that impressive.

I know it's all this stress that is causing the negativity in my life, so I did some research and found this:


Perhaps it will help some. But what helps more are the little quotes I read each night from the spiritual quote book "Stand a Little Taller". The other night I opened it up to this:

"Don't Quit"

"And now, my beloved son, notwithstanding their hardness, let us labor diligently; for if we should cease to labor, we should be brought under condemnation; for we have a labor to perform whilst in this tabernacle of clay, that we may conquer the enemy of all righteousness, and rest our souls in the kingdom of God". Moroni 9:6

"You have not failed until you quit trying." - President Gordon B. Hinckley

This could not have hit more directly on the head of what I have been feeling lately. But just when I think it couldn't get more applicable, tonight's, dated for November the 8th, it reads:

"Believe in Yourself"

"Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompense of reward". Hebrews 10:35

"Believe in yourself. Believe in yourself as a child of God. Believe in your capacity to do good in the world, to spread light and truth and understanding; to reach out to those in distress and need to help and bless them" -President Gordon B. Hinckley

This one is going on the wall, in big, bold letters where I can see it every single day. So perfect.

p.s. I have the most AMAZING and WONDERFUL parents that ever existed. They help me, too. I'm just sayin'.